[Closed] When the Loneliness Strikes

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WHO: Tommy Shepherd, Gar Logan, Wanda Maximoff
WHERE: Tommy's Dome, Wanda's Dome
WHAT: Alone Event - Comforting
WHEN: July 13th and on
WARNINGS: Traumatic history, references to torture and mental abuse, one thread may lead to sex, it will be marked when it gets there.


Waking Up Alone | Closed to Gar

There was a specific sort of feeling that comes with waking up, one that Tommy hasn't felt in a long time. The last time this had happened had been when he was locked up, when he wasn't sure what day it was, what month, what year. When the only thing that was certain was that he would be awoken and there would be pain.

It was a sense that came with every morning, waking up in an empty space, walls he could touch with both hands at once by just reaching out, it had nearly driven him mad. And now his personal dome gave off the same feeling. Isolation, darkness. There was no one there.

The pain is so deep, the fear so overpowering. Tommy blurs around his dome at full speed, searching, seeking trying to find something that he knew couldn't be found. The certainty was absolute, and he found himself screaming into the void around him. They were all gone. They were gone and they had left him, all alone in the darkness. Where was Gar? Hadn't Gar come by earlier? Why had he left? He had promised, hadn't he? Promised he would be here with Tommy, and now he was gone too.

Just before the nightmare faded from his dome, Tommy found himself collapsing onto his couch and trying so hard not to sob.

United In Pain | Closed to Wanda

When it all passes and he has a moment, Tommy does the only thing that makes sense. He races to Wanda's dome, hands immediately coming up to start pounding on her door. After how he'd felt, he needed to not be alone. He needed to be near his mother, the only true family he had here. Maybe she wasn't HIS Wanda, but she would get it, right? The fear of being alone, of being isolated. Worse, he knew it would have to be so much more for her, because she had lost people in ways he didn't know that others would really get.



[OOC: If someone wants Tommy in particular around related to this, hit me up with a message here or on plurk churbooseanon and I can make something.]

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[garrrr]

The nightmare that had come over Tommy's dome had them both passing like ships in the night, alone and so close but never managing to realize that they weren't alone. There was a panic in Gar, memories of that first cage, the first time he'd tasted blood and being alone. He'd been alone and he'd been alone in the pain of everything that'd happened and the things that he'd done but at least for a while he had had people. Now no one's there. He doesn't run around trying to find anyone. He closes in on himself, on the floor somewhere in the kitchen area and back pressed against the cabinet and knees drawn tightly to his chest. All the dark thoughts that come with being alone rising to the surface and he feels like they're slowly drowning him, closing his airways.

But it does pass but the heaviness doesn't really lift, cloying to his mind stubbornly.

Gar has the presence of mind to push himself up, to realize that he's in Tommy's dome, that he'd been there with Tommy which meant they'd both just experienced that. He forces himself to calmness, to the careful state of being okay because you need other people to be okay and it only takes a moment to find Tommy.

"Tommy," he breathes and there's a relief in seeing him and he drops beside him immediately, pulling him close. "I'm here."

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Gar. Oh thank fuck. He's not alone. Tears in his eyes Tommy wraps his arms around Gar, holding him tightly. No, don't leave him, just stay here. Fuck, never go.

Tommy's strong, very strong thanks to his mutation. Which means in his grief and fear his arms are like a vice around Gar, possibly even going to risk hurting him.

[garrrr]

The hold is tight, like really tight. It starts to hurt a little and he does his best to hide a wince, pressing his face into the other's shoulder and his arms were tight around Tommy too but he didn't have that kind of strength so it's just a normal grip.

"I'm not going anywhere," Gar assures him lowly, Tommy didn't have to say anything for him to know.

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It was so much worse than anything Tommy had ever experienced. A return to the isolation he had escaped. It was too much. So far past too much. He's actually... Actually sobbing. Sobbing and holding Gar because it's that bad.

"You can't. You gotta stay. Please. I can't lose you too."

[garrrr]

Gar aches when he realizes that Tommy's sobbing and he doesn't know the right words to say or even what he should do. He rubs Tommy's back gently.

"I'm here, I'm staying, Tommy," he says softly and then he's seeking out his lips to kiss him, urgent as if trying to further convince him that he means it.

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The kiss helps some, and it keeps the fear and pain from falling past his lips. And Tommy still clings to Gar. He doesn't get it. Tommy was alone for so long. Abandoned. To go back to that could kill him. Even such a short time had been so much toward breaking him.

[garrrr]

Gar keeps kissing Tommy and he presses him back so that Tommy's positioned so that Gar can straddle his lap and press close. He's not thinking too much about it, he just wants to get as close as he can. Please believe him, he's staying. It aches to see Tommy this way.

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Oh, well that's a thing. A lot of a thing. Tommy likes this position, a lot. The weight of Gar is comforting.

The kiss was good, intense, beautiful, and Tommy's arms loosen up so they can instead run up and down his back.

[garrrr]

Gar's a little relieved when Tommy's hold loosens and is no longer just shy of too much to handle. He parts his lips, a flick of his tongue against Tommy's in an open invitation to deepen it.

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How could he ever be so rude as to deny the invitation? Tommy leans up, opening his mouth as he deepens the kiss, intending to coax Gar's tongue into a bit more active exploration.

[garrrr]

Gar makes a quiet sound as Tommy's mouth opens and he's more than happy to let the other lead him into the exploration. His fingers slid into the other's hair, curling against his scalp.

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This? This was an intense way to reinforce his not being alone, wasn't it? And he loves it. This felt, you know, possessed. Consumed with the fire of the other man.

[garrrr]

At some point Gar breaks the kiss to get a full breath in, pressing his forehead to Tommy's as he does.

"I'm here," he murmurs to him again, fingers still buried in his hair.

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"You're here," Tommy agrees, breath half ragged. And he love it. "Be more here."

[garrrr]

Gar swallows at that, his fingers pressing against the other's scalp and he tries to think of how he could even be more there.

"What do you need from me?" Gar whispers finally, settling as close as he can, pressing kisses over the other's jaw and down his neck.

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Yep, he's gasping at those lips moving down his neck, and Tommy's head tilts back to give Gar more skin.

"We've got a space all to ourselves. Get creative."

[garrrr]

Gar smirks at the answer as he sucks at his neck carelessly and he rocks his hips down against Tommy's.

"Carry me to your bed, mm?" he suggests, his other arm looping behind the other's neck.

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Fuck yeah. Careless and friction is totally a double point win here.

The arms around his neck isn't really needed, but he's happy to scoop the other up and carry him toward the sunken bed. He drops Gar onto the bed, smiling down at him.

"We're wearing WAY too much."

[garrrr]

Of course they weren't needed but Gar wanted to do it anyway and doesn't let go when the other drops him down, at least not completely.

"So take your clothes off."

CW: Naked people doing naked people things (sexual activity)

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Of course those words just mean it happens. One moment Tommy's standing over him, looking down at Gar with a smile and all his clothes. The next he's standing over gar, looking down at him with a smile, utterly naked, and his hand stroking slowly over his hardening shaft.

[garrrr]

Tommy gets undressed so fast and it just makes Gar grin, his eyes starting at the other's face and lowering over his whole body to where the other was stroking himself and Gar exhales before making quick work of his own clothes. "You're so hot."

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Wow. Hot? Tommy's smile changes from a smile and into a grin.

"Am I? And you're not saying that just because my body temperature is higher?"

He waits until Gar is naked before joining the other on the bed, kneeling down in a position that leaves him straddling Gar.

"Honestly, I'm gong to admit I half thought you'd match down below. But you've been here long enough that I know your hair is really this color. So, I guess, well, I thought it'd match."

[garrrr]

Gar rolls his eyes and doesn't dignify it with a reaction as the other straddles over him. Gar reaches up to rest his hand on the other's neck, having to rise slightly to do so but he tugs the other downward so he can kiss him again.

"It doesn't really make that much sense, huh."

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Oh, there's that. Tommy grins as he leans in, his lips moving to brush over Gar's very, very carefully.

"Dude, I've been with people where shades don't match. It still makes sense. Your roots are still strangely dark."

[garrrr]

Gar presses up a little more to get a slightly firmer kiss but he lets the other talk. his hand is still firm on the back of his neck as he looks up at him. "I've never figured out why, really."