There may be murder tonight

[of_bokthersa]

Who: Seregil and Alec
Where: Their pod
When: Beginning of February/After the log with Jag
What: After their talk with Jagger, Seregil wants to know where all these thoughts about death are coming from.



It had taken quite a bit for Seregil not to say something during the meet up with Jagger, but it wasn't the other man's business. It was, however, his. If something had happened, if Alec had died - just the thought of it sent a coldness like claws around his heart. No, Alec wasn't allowed to die.

It took everything in him not to pull the other man close to prove to himself that he was solid and whole. Of course, their work was dangerous, but death, no, Alec wasn't allowed to die, nor was Micum or anyone else in his ever small orbit. He'd die first to keep them from it. The idea that such thoughts were his comparison for something that one could easily make a comparison to pieces of a puzzle, it was telling, and as soon as they were inside Seregil whirled on him.

"Alright, out with it." Deep lines creased the frown as his grey eyes stared at Alec intently. Either he'd tell him or Seregil would wring it out of him.

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[whiteroadrunning]

"I'm glad to know it."

Alec coaxed Seregil to rest with him, and allowed his eyes to drift shut when they were properly situated.

"But you haven't taken anything from me. Quite simply, you're who you are, and I'm who I am, and we can't help that at the moment. So don't feel you have anything to apologize for."

[of_bokthersa]

It isn't hard to coax him because of how comfortable this feels; how right. He lets his hand slide down to lace his fingers with Alec's

"It must still be jarring for you." He couldn't say anything about it really, Seregil had never had the taliminos bond, and would doubt that he ever would if it weren't for Alec's stating that he did. After all, there would be no reason for Alec to know about it unless he'd told the boy about it.

"All of this must be."

[whiteroadrunning]

"It is for you too," Alec reasoned. "There's nothing easy about this for either of us, I'm afraid. If our places were changed, I can't imagine I'd react much differently."

The difference being, of course, that Alec was far more hesitant about his own feelings. Seregil had been surer of himself from the start, as he often was; Alec was a careful man, and that was perhaps what matched them so perfectly.

"But you know I'm patient. And I know you're worth waiting for. So don't worry yourself over it."

[of_bokthersa]

Leaning back, he kissed the space between his neck and his chin. "Too patient, it seems." The truth was that he hadn't known just how patient Alec was or how much he wanted to be with him. It was a lot to live up to.