[His heart is gonna thunder right out his chest. Richie breath shudders as he tries to scoop in lungfuls of air, but it doesn't do shit, the space between he and Eddie is thin and empty and gives him nothing.
He needs to ask this right. Needs to give himself an out.]
I'm the one who [he almost fumbles again, powers through-] wanted that to happen. I'm the one who thought he needed to feel guilty about how he felt. Do you... you get it, right?
I don't- [He laughs, high and fuelled by nerves, barely daring to hope.] I couldn't hate you Eddie. Especially not... god, not if- sorry, I don't know what I'm-
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[His heart is gonna thunder right out his chest. Richie breath shudders as he tries to scoop in lungfuls of air, but it doesn't do shit, the space between he and Eddie is thin and empty and gives him nothing.
He needs to ask this right. Needs to give himself an out.]
I'm the one who [he almost fumbles again, powers through-] wanted that to happen. I'm the one who thought he needed to feel guilty about how he felt. Do you... you get it, right?
I don't- [He laughs, high and fuelled by nerves, barely daring to hope.] I couldn't hate you Eddie. Especially not... god, not if- sorry, I don't know what I'm-